this morning was absolutely perfect weather. i had post-shower warmth at my core while wearing flipflops to catch the slight autumn breezes. the perfection turned into cold cold shivery cold nighttime before i could even say "alex & emily make the most delicious gourmet vegatarian pizza ever". before trudging off to the union, i dragged my winter coat out from the "winter stuff" box that i thought wouldn't be open until at least november, and participated in the classic discovery of old memories preserved in my coat pockets. the two velcro-sealed time capsules were filled with half-folded play programs, movie tickets, nyc restaurant cards, as well as some expired chocolate candies, old GRADES?, and tasty recovered lip balms that i swore i had lost. it was a great rewind to year number 1 of college in a sentimental christmasy type way.
blah. i haven't had nearly enough good, quality time to simply sit down and reflect and muse and analyze and torture myself to death. it's mostly because school is starting to kick up a notch by kicking my ass a bit, which is dampening to the mood. the deepest thoughts i've had for the past few days include "i like apples" or "i hate my broken ipod" or "i hate sociology lecture" (aka: extremely biased lectures). professor john d. delamater, PhD and sexpert, you make me angry. by the way, i hope you don't go around and surf random blogs... because that would be werid.
professors are meant to educate, not brainwash. granted, there is an initial amount of subjectivity on the professor's part because it is impossible for s/he (reminds me of when we used to write s/h/it in latin and crack up ALL THE TIME) to be 100% objective when having to make decisions about and control what to teach and what not to teach. different viewpoints should be presented or at least an attempt should be made, because differences in opinion are kind of what life and interacting with people is all about. i did not need brainwashing on that fine until-your-lecture friday morning. trust me, i am obviously already among the majority who believe that abstinence-only sex eduaction programs are ridiculous, whether we're talking about 10th grade health class or africa, and that federal government websites about sex are bullshit. even though i was in full agreement, using phrases limited to bashing Bush's policies (okay, i admit i took pleasure from a tiny part of this) and "us liberals" are just plain tacky in a classroom setting. and i tell you, if i happened to be socially conservative in the slightest amount, i would have immediately stomped out of that lecture hall, well quickly stomped, and written or called or bitched somehow to someone about the lack of professionalism by the so-called professional professor.
i think i was so so aggravated about the situation (and i'm not even conservative!) because for one, i am uncomfortable with brainwashing and secondly, i've never really had a professor that i did not worship or at least, respect.
while i'm on a little rant parade, the fact that smoking has become the latest trend here in wisconsin is gross. cough COUGH!
so, i just realized that i am doing 2 really attractive things right now:
1. biting my nails (again)! although, it's not really biting my nails, more like neurotically nibbling at the edges. you have such beautiful nails? yes i do! that is, i did before i chewed them into stubs.
2. finishing off an entire bag of turtle chex mix. so delicious. so much in fact, that i just poured the remaining 12 microscopic pieces at the bottom of the bag directly into my mouth just like a lady. it's getting bad in a not-so-funny way because now, amy gets free general mills EVERYTHING (my favorites, chex and cherrios) because of her internship with them, so we have a whole stock pile of general mills over here. seriously people, stop by for breakfast ANYtime.
if i had to describe myself with 3 things right now, it would be these: i leave really bad phone messages and dance without knowing what i'm doing and i sing pretty badly as well.