Thursday, November 24, 2005

500 miles

our kitchen counter is covered in green giant cans of corn for tomorrow's first thanksgiving meal of the day (taking place at the bizzare time of 11 o'clock in the morning). actually, that's today, isn't it? how did thanksgiving get here already? hm, it seems as if i did other things today besides dream about the scantily clad green canned vegetable mascot... right.

so many things have changed here at home, but so far catching up has been plain old nice without the usual overload of muttled up emotions. this morning i woke up to find that kate had crawled into bed with me. hell yes we spoon and we're cute, but really, i'm confident that she simply enjoys torturing me by waking me up in the worse ways possible. oh, i know something that's changed. "my" car (under debate when my sister claims it) has transformed its identity and now features multiple handmade CDs by kate herself that should be titled: now that's what i call orgy music vol. 40! they're not even the good grind-y songs that you can sing along to, geez. and so it is, i resort back to the gag-worthy but addicting delilah show on Y105.


i am thankful and so proud of ROCHESTER because it totally dominated the "didn't have midnight showings of RENT" city of CHICAGO on wednesday. that fact blew me away. yes for sing-along theaters at the wee hours! please, everyone go and experience that at least once. speaking of movies, guess who was possibly cool enough to see three movies in theaters within the last 24 hours?

i am also thankful for good old-fashioned blistex, fleeting feelings of worldliness, and love.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

thumbs up

heyheyhey. i have approximately 5 minutes before i must dash off to art. let's just say, this morning i finished my LAST midterm before finals and i feel like a million bucks. tonight i'm driving home with scott giving me sole music control (yes!) and then i plan on dragging my mum to a movie, and then wednesday and friday night partying and thanksgiving feasts with strawberry rhubarb sauce.

and also, mmm knitting.

alright, time for art. i'm glad i had the chance to record this fabulous mood.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

killing yourself to live

i finally got to start this book yesterday afternoon in a miracle happenstance of boredom. i hope to finish within a year, but i'm very doubtful.

wow, i think my entire day revolved around me and a bagel. while consuming that most delicious breakfast bagel sandwich at lunchtime, things were blissful. life got better and better with each bite. (when ignoring the law of diminishing marginal utility of course... ha i apologize, my first and last attempt at using econ jargon in everyday talk) but then, i came to the last bite. i enjoyed it just as much as the first, but afterwards when my hands were left with mere crumbs, reality hit. my bagel was finished. it's fucking cold. i must ace econ and sign a lease for an apartment before break. i am not good at drawing marginal cost curves or talking about money in the thousands. dumbledore is dead. oh, i wanted to cry over all of these things, but really, i think it's only because i finished my bagel too quickly.

tegan's in georgia right now protesting the school of americas with church, and i somewhat regret not going with them. instead, i am in wisconsin right now freezing my butt, planning on downing 5 cups of coffee and going to watch a little harry potter with hormones. i have been excited for this night and the next week foreeeeever, so why is it all gone?

p.s. amy is watching survivor, which means yelling profanities at a screen for 1 hour (sometimes 2). everyone must witness this act sometime, just for kicks.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

what is hott

love letters in spanish
making out in london telephone booths
matthew macfadyen

pillow talk
eating cheetos
5 days, 4 nights
running in long skirts in rain

Thursday, November 10, 2005

do nothing

first and foremost, i must brag about my mini-victory over all the nerds that attend uw-madison. last sunday was the annual 2005 quiz bowl on campus for which i was recruited, specifically for the pop culture section. what an honor it was. i really didn't know what to expect, something inbetween e. l. konigsburg's the view from saturday and college jeopardy maybe. let me tell you, it was an absolute nerd convention. these kids knew everything, pulling obscure factoids out of their asses with ease and haughtiness. my mini-victory came about at the end of a tied round, in which case, we had a bonus round. now please, just take one guess at what the subject of this bonus round was... physics laws? civil war battles? supreme court justices? 19th century russian literature? oh, no. KELLY CLARKSON, thank you very much. in this room packed full of nerd brainiac boys, i was the only person who knew the answers to all 3 bonus questions, leading our team to victory in that most intense round.

it was really a great moment, watching those geniuses become baffled by simple simple questions of renee zellweger's wedding location or the actors in the american pie movies. sigh.

just recently, i added 2 movies to my most emotional movie list. i'm speaking abstractly, i do not actually keep movie lists like that. sometime last week zana briski (director and amazing person) showed her film "born into brothels" in a packed lecture hall. so glad i got to see it in this way with a real people (aka: diversely-aged) crowd, rather than renting it on a saturday night with a couple friends. not a saturday night movie. although it was distrubing enough to me sick and puke afterwards, i still loved it for its wonderful PHOTOGRAPHY and how it was filled with parts that left you laughing and crying in the same breath.

why do movies move and motivate so effectively? my new 7-word mantra: I REFUSE TO SIT ON MY ARSE. i would really like to do something else with my time, but i am scared shitless that i do not have the balls to choose the road less traveled, as opposed to my dream ikea-esque apartment and j.crew herringbone business suits. i also understand that the idea of hurling yourself at african orphans or peace corps-ing it up generally becomes most appealing at college age when attempting to figure out any sort of meaning and identity, but as much as i would love to spend years of my life galivanting over the world and helping those in need, i have to remember that such specific acts do not singularly define a meaningful life. oh, i really don't know what i'm going to do with the rest of my (hopefully) 80 or so years of life (i probably just jinxed that).

this reminds me of the ONLY (and oh-so-terrible, because i was going on 3 hours of sleep) church service that i've been to since school started, stating the well-worded point that giving is really in fact, a privilege.

oh, the other somewhat life-changing movie was "the weather man" which was an unexpected treat, because really, nicolas cage does not thrill me that much. especially when he does his "false pensive, one-eyebrow raised" face. fortunately, this movie hardly had any of those faces. haha. i love how i've been complaining about not seeing enough movies lately. i can't exactly say why, but nicolas cage in that loveable-asshole role was so charming. also, that night i came home with soaked clothes after walking through at least 2 miles of street rivers and curbside lakes. i pulled a few of those inside-out umbrella moments and got a full body shower by a passing car when standing on the curb, not smart on my part. still, i can't say that i've been THAT soaked in a while and even though i was pretty much covered in dirty street water, it felt sort of cleansing.


i was going to write about my family's visit the other day, but it's almost time for me to go. i am being forced to watch the OC while eating chinese food, how cruel. i've been missing my family terribly, but the visit was pretty anti-climatic and dull. nobody was very talkative, as my sister doesn't even count because she was texting on her cell for the majority of the time. there seems to be some expectation involved whenever a group of people drives more than 3 hours to see specifically you. instead of being some big reunion, it was fairly low-key and i love low-key because i'm not used to outwardly expressing extra emotion whenever i see these people that i've lived with for nearly two decades.

the girls in my hall have been so sweet to me lately. by the way, who has ever heard of farina? i hadn't until last week when shannon let me try hers. immediately after the first bite, i claimed it as a new favorite. apparently they only sell it in new york grocery stores, boo.

this is a woah lot of writing, what can i say? apparently a lot happens in a week.

Wednesday, November 2, 2005

you're my satellite

currently pulling a solid C in art. obviously, not my calling. i would really be interested in knowing why i continue to obtain bad grades in only classes relating to my MAJOR. basically, this does not make me feel good at all but rather, the opposite and then some.

last night was one of those nights that you wish could last for at least a week. being with my long-distance other half at a fantastic concert = fun times a billion. doors opened at an early 6:30, so we got in at least a couple hours of good pre-concert talk. an especially great part of the night: i was fortunate enough to stand beside the coolest 50-year-old man and his wife (a good sport). this guy was rocking out 100%, seriously, his dancing consisted solely of rocking back-and-forth from foot to foot, and it was as endearing as ever. of course, he sang along to all the words and on occasion, he even inspired the crowd to clap along and do the punching-the-air concert move, which i still don't understand. oh, but i got to dance and sing and get signatures and meet famous people! ekk with excitement!


looking back on last night amplifies my already very excited and happy mood, which is quite astonishing in light of recent random outbursts, a depressing oprah, a depressing dr. phil, and me missing people to tears.

let's see. sometimes when i bare my soul to someone, i feel like i'm talking to a wooden plank, and then i ask myself why i am talking. now that i think about it, today was an amazing day, actually. wait, why was that again? didn't you get a shitty econ grade? isn't your GPA taking a nosedive? aren't you scared shitless of getting kicked out of the honors program? hm, all true BUT. for some reason, it was still really good. wow, could it be? am i really transforming into an optimist?

by the way, this week is skirt week because it's a warm 50 degrees! also by the way, i wanted to make a list of the GOOD and the BAD (and the UGLY, for kicks) of warm and cool weather. this is mostly related to wardrobe choices, allowing me to come to the conclusion that skirts are just undeniably better than all other articles of clothing. it's a FACT. i've always wanted to play the game FACT or CRAP because it looks and sounds so dorky cool. also, i've always wanted to watch just one SEINFIELD episode (to see what all the fuss is about and understand those people whose main language is seinfield quotations).

i have to go eat this leftover laffy taffy now. YES for wrapper jokes!