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right now i am really angry at my mum. i know that i have pent up frustration, because really, i am not mad at her. i do not mean to be snobby or offensive or irrational, even though, i am. she's just the person closest to me at the moment. lucky her. ironically, i've been very enamored with families, just lately. their wonderfulness comes from all of the different forms they take on, from dysfunctional fights to traditional goodnight-kisses and dinnertimes. last night me/kate piled onto mum/dad's bed and watched letterman, laughing at stupid things. i have people to get irrationally mad at and be stupid with, thank god for them.

accidentally, i watched lindsay lohan in tv interviews on two different occasions within the last 12some hours, last night on letterman and also, this morning on some news show. regardless of what she may do behind the scenes or whenever she's away from the spotlight, when she's put in front of a camera, she carries herself with impossible poise. she was able to carry on perfectly lovely "conversations" with these middle-aged showbiz people while being able to laugh at herself and talk about herbie: fully loaded as if it was up for an academy award... or as if it was an actual movie. every laugh and every flick of her hair seemed choreographed. even if it's artificial, it's impressive.

it's a little disheartening when the longest day of the year is over and all that's left are shorter days, like i've already passed a climax or lost a chance. i'm already sliding downhill towards the end of my hollywood career (yes, forever) and another start of school and mostly unimaginable things... but for now, i live and love my summertime in dreams of good skirts and conversation.

tonight after finishing a full work day and getting stuck in a traffic jam ("rush hour" + sucky highway 52), jason mraz came on the radio and made my day. then i came home and had a rousing fight with my mum, which speaking of, i should go settle (as in go apologize, not punching or anything).

i like this hot air. it's hot.

that na-na-na song- KROC