upchucking

yesterday i wrapped my very first christmas present of the year. i splurged on some shiny green ribbon to go with my green christmas tree wrapping paper. then i cut, taped, and folded a complete masterpiece. ah. i haven't done anything insanely outrageous for way too long.

that will change soon.

well kids, it's about that time. time to upchuck every bit of information from every lecture over the course of the last 4 months. sickening. stress is unhealthy for many reasons, but number one: it turns me into a self-centered monster. it's all about me and fucking A-F letters and approval from professors. i am careless with other people's emotions and do not take the time to listen to answers to generic questions that i ask out of obligation. there are too many unsaid words of encouragement and congratulations that i should be handing out. instead, i am too distracted with studying myself to death and planning ways to beat up my psych prof. like i said, sickening.

"i send my love with you." people hardly ever say things like this outloud anymore. wilma said this at my last visit with her and i had to hug her again. oh, i will miss that 83-year-old woman and our talks about leo dicaprio's hottness and fashionably flared pants.

okay. sanity intact? life in perspective? cookies nearby?