i'm impressed, well i'm in love

i cannot wait to see "shopgirl" next weekend and "undiscovered" (THE NEW ASHLEE SIMPSON MOVIE! OMG!!!) tomorrow morning when i wake up.

this week has been a big fat failure, leaving me with with socially awkward moments, false bad news and freaking out, a severely burned right arm, and a massively bruised left leg. on the other HAND, this weekend has been fun times a billion. i was laughing so hard last night that my abs were sore today. i love that. we ran up and down the halls screaming about genital warts and the like. uh, what can i say? i love that too.

lately it seems like my life is plowing full speed ahead (in a good way), but my heart isn't in it. hm, something to do with the fact that i am not who i want to be, or even, who i really am. this fact is incredibly gross to me. and here i am, complaining about life and living when my friend's dad has recently died. she bravely came back to the dorms yesterday to pick up her things before leaving us for the rest of the semester. i hugged her and complimented her new haircut. maybe i should have said "i'm sorry" or "hang in there" or another choice phrase, but right then, it didn't really seem appropriate. i cannot even imagine.

i just watched "cruel intentions" and talked to scott and found the word QUINZEE and now am listening to "colorblind" on repeat. sometimes sitting here at my little laptop with some down time and barefeet makes me feel very whole.