b-e-a

today school was my passion. specifically, mechanical engineering. specifically, autoCAD. essentially, autoCAD is scarily identical to playing the cd-rom game "the sims", just without people to control. all of those geeky hours during middle school (and okay, high school! and last summer too!) playing that computer game are kind of actually getting me somewhere. now, instead of sneaking downstairs at night and staying up alone in the family room with chloe, allison and i stay after class for hours at a time to finish our apartment solutions. ah, you do not know how good this makes me feel. i am falling in love with my major all over again and being glad that this subject matter is where i am investing my time and energies.

a couple weeks ago, i got asked if i could "model" (no, not like super and yes, with amy) in our dorm room for the next uw-madison housing brochure picture. so, okay. why are amy and i so special? i mean, i know we are extraordinary beauties, but really? they told us they need good student role models, ha! let's calculate how many anthro classes i have stayed awake through (1, barely). anyway. i forgot about it for a while until recently when they asked to schedule a time with us. when i hesitated (i think i stopped being photogenic around age 8), they pushed. then it came to my attention that they told us they needed to "add visual diversity" this year. i automatically felt offended because they saw me as an asian in the midwest and not leah. i realize that my thoughts are dangerously close to crossing that invisible line separating real issues from unnessarily amplified ones, but i can't help feel this degree of choreography is ridiculous. i always laugh when discussing the token african-american boy in the early harry potter movies, why? because we go crazy obsessed with attempting to put together "picture perfect" images (extending far beyond racial diversity only). hm, whatever. i don't mind smiling chessily for them, but i do mind their efforts to portray a false representation of madison as having asians around every corner. (*even if the highest percentage of international students are korean)

one thing i have never understood is why people write symbols for letters in swear words (for example: a$$hole) because they don't want to say the actual word. this seems incredibly... pointless? please, someone enlighten me?

my eyes cannot stay open any longer, so i leave you with 3 random facts:
1. SPRING BREAK IN 11 DAYS!
2. got hooked on grey's anatomy tonight. 1st episode = crying 5 separate times! i know i am behind, but people do not lie, it is good.
3. jason mraz is dating tristan prettyman?!