the extinction of tagalongs and camp snoopy

sad sad sad.

"it is not time or opportunity that is to determine intimacy; it is disposition alone. seven years would be insufficient to make some people acquainted with each other, and seven days are more than enough for others." -jane austen

at what point would you say you know someone well? katie and i were pondering this question for hours one night in an effort to avoid studying. i would venture to say that most people tend to associate closeness with the ability to predict the other person's next moves. this sounds okay, but it fails to explain too many situations. maybe, rather than simply predicting actions, "knowing someone well" is in fact knowing their intention behind their actions and not necessarily being able to anticipate every move. i feel like this must be true at this stage in life with new and old friendships beginning and fizzling out all over the place. with everyone progressing and growing, it's pretty amazing (in an optimistic way) that we are able to maintain truly close relationships.

this sounds odd... but do you ever propel awkward small talk in order to maintain distance? why do we do this again? fear of exposure, preservation, reputation, wha? sometimes i seriously wish everyone and myself had the ability to be themselves, and therefore, license others to be themselves too.

so. the oscars were AMAZING to me, as usual. honestly, part of the fun is to see (yes, the dresses! but also) all of the expectation, hype and glamour attempting to be upheld. rachel weisz has been my favorite ever since "about a boy". she is even more stunning pregnant than heidi klum. speaking of, i am extremely happy because this morning i received an e-mail informing me that my cousin and his wife are pregnant! she's due in october, what an excellent month. i envy their future child because s/he will be completely surrounded by pottery and excellent vegetarian cooking. anyways. i am so terribly behind on my movie-watching that i am ashamed. school gets all the blame. i really need to devote all of my energies this summer into befriending someone in the movie business so that next year i can attend the academy awards.

there are moments, and if i'm lucky, days, where i feel like all of my actions have purpose behind them. i only wish i was so lucky this week, but i CAN! scrape by until FRIDAY!

i'm proud to say that i think i am finally adjusted to college. 1 year and 7 months, not too shabby.