why not

so, i was reading some sabrina ward harrison tonight... but before i forget, tonight i saw "breakfast on pluto" which i did not like at all. when i left the movie i just felt so... anxious. maybe because i was sitting behind a middle-aged man who made me uncomfortable by laughing too loudly and dancing in his seat to the background music? i don't know. i am jumpy lately, like for example, i seriously screamed in "the sound of music" and covered my eyes at the part when liesl climbs into maria's room through the window in the middle of the night. that's not normal. also tonight, kate asked if anyone wanted to go SKYDIVING next weekend, which heightened my already apprehensive mood. i'm pretty sure skydiving for me would be 100% hell and 0% fun.

now, back to what i was initially saying. here is a part of a page from the book i was reading, a letter by a 85-year-old woman. at first i thought it was unoriginal, but then i got over it and began to love it.

"If I had my life to live over I'd try to make more mistakes next time. I would relax. I would limber up. I'd be sillier than I have been. I know of a very few things I would take seriously. I would be less hygenic. I would take more chances. I would take more trips. I would burn more gasoline and eat more ice cream and less beans. I would have actual troubles and fewer imaginary ones. You see I'm one of those people who lives sensibly and sanely hour after hour, day after day. Oh, I've had my moments, and if I had my life to live over I'd have more of them. In fact I'd have nothing else- just moments one after another instead of living so many years ahead each day. If I had my life to live over I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I would play hooky more. I wouldn't make such good grades, except by accident."

i really need to make this list right now.

things that make me feel grounded:
*talking about the weather
*barefeet wrapped in bedsheets
*memorized movies
*seeing my grandparents at church
*rereading old journals
*car rides
*leaning on my kitchen counter and sorting the mail
*choreographed dancing
*red delicious apple slices
*the sound of morning doves
*listening to my mum tell a funny story
*fat sharpie markers