some season finales

i feel like things have been so random and haphazard this summer. i wake up in the mornings and do not have an itinerary or plan of attack for the day. some days this is exciting and some days it's scarily uneventful.

the other day i fell back in love with running. for the past two months, i have seen running as a disgusting nuisance, like the worst chore on the chore list. i have dragged myself out of bed, the family room couch, plush carpeted floors, and pushed myself to perform like a little mechanical wind-up doll. but the other day, the wind and sun matched my mood and i sprang across the pavement with the clearest head ever. i hope hope hope this continues as a running streak.

tonight was a redwood room reunion (minus 1). i am truly thankful for these friends that i have had for many many years. among other things, we had a mayan chocolate cinnamon ice cream, which is perhaps the best ice cream i've had in my entire life. beforehand, i did makeup and took pictures for prom. my sister and her friends looked so happy and fresh and young, it made me excited all over again to still be young and 20.

i am awake for no reason and will probably skip church tomorrow. god hates me, i know.