longest week ever

today i did not do much. in fact, i have not done much this entire week. i wish i could stay in bed some days and lounge around in pjs and re-watch movies that i have already seen a billion times without feeling so guilty and sloth-like.

let me just say, i cannot believe only ONE week of classes has passed. it has felt like months, many of them. on tuesday i was in the emergency room the entire night and i'd say that was a pretty low point in the week. i felt miserable and i haven't felt exactly "miserable" in a long time. i do not even know by now if i am OK or whether i will fall apart at a moment's notice, which peeves me because i'd like to think i have SOME control over my body. GRR, body. all i can do now is pop colorful pills and pray to god that i will not start deteriorating at age 21. let's make it at least to paris-time.