raindrops keep falling on my head

arggh, i need to take a shower, but i'm being a bit, or a lot too lazy.

tonight is the last night of my entire life that i will spend renting people stupid movies. i can't wait to celebrate. it will be at exactly 12:15 am and i will be alone at my house with everyone else ASLEEP, but damnit, i will celebrate!

i just read something good on how existentialism makes life possible and how it really is amazing that humans have the ability to equate imperfection with perfection, even though our ideals will never be realistic because they are the definition of perfection. neoplatoism (what differates between the ideal and carnal/what exists in the material world) makes us aware that idealism does not really exist. but somehow, we ignore that. so thanks to the mythical character of sisyphus (NOT syphilis), we choose to keep on living life despite its proved imperfection. anyways, it made me want to watch "i <3 huckabees" again, mostly because i <3 dustin hoffman.

i'm a fairly terrible person. since summer is slowly but surely winding down, i not only avoid doing the whole small talk thing with high school "peeps" but now refuse to do it altogether. i condescendingly smile "hello, i know you. i know exactly what we're going to talk about and how pointless it is to even start. so, enjoy the rest of your summer and have the time of your life this year." i smile like this even though i tell myself that it wouldn't be pointless. it might even be slightly comforting and wonderful, remembing that hey, we've been in each other's lives for quite some time now. but like i said, a bit lazy.

yesterday i could have been at the ben folds/rufus wainwright concert, but i couldn't. that made me sad. instead, i listened to them on my ipod while reading some really great plays by rebecca gilman. and i missed a killers concert in the cities! and i forgot jos' birthday until he told me! more terrible.

okay, now i'm stalling. it's rainy and muggy. shower time.